Miyerkules, Disyembre 29, 2004

Happy kami, but no "Happy Together" for today

Today, we watched a movie! ..Sigaw.. the story's good, did well with the flashback strategy... Nalaman ko kagad na may past and present dun sa mga scenes eh..harhar! I'm proud of it, ok? Galing ko! (pardon my pomposity nalang ha *wink) After that, we played CS, kasama pa brother ko..haha! another happy moment. Hoy JC! hindi counted yung "knife-kill" mong yon..hah! that's not your first, my friend...not yet...never! There's some freakin' glitch in that Half-life software, sinasabi ko. >:C Pwede ba un? Ang layo mo, tapos tinamaan ako ng kutsilyo?? Aargh! Tapos d mo pa intention yon! aminin! You're playing with the knife lang eh, or... you're just swatting flies!! I can't be "knife-stabbed" that easily y'know.. Anyway, I'm feeling light today, despite the fact that I still have heavy school loads, bakit kaya??......

Addistarted this journey at11:07 PM

Learned this from someone.. ;)

It's so damn hard for me to express my emotions! Wala lang, nasabi ko lang. =) Hayyy.. These trials can kill people, really! There are certain emotional distress that can really disable a normal-healthy-&-kickin' person..literally disabling a normal-healthy-&-kickin' person! When struck by this so-called "love-bug", people may tend to stare blankly in the air, think of many unusual things that may spark their paranoia; some may become overly sensitive (or in some cases, the opposite); others may adopt the habit of skipping meals, sleeping late at night, and many other rare habits that only the "love-struck" people embrace. They can be lost in space in an instant!..Or they can eventually take the form of another animal!!..weird. (ok, maybe I'm exaggerating already, but there's a tinge of truth there) bwahahaha! And much worse, when these people "somehow feel" that his/her...uhm, let's see.... special someone doesn't care anymore and that his/her heart is seemingly broken into pieces, then all hell will befall his/her poor soul..unimaginable angst will ensue him/her. They'll cry their heart out and frown to the world as if that "one very special person" is the only one left in the world..heheh! Ang galing ba ng nasabi ko? I'm not guilty of that feeling or something ha... really! swear! promise!... I'm not even defensive, y'know... heheheh =)

Addistarted this journey at10:58 PM

Lunes, Disyembre 27, 2004

My Christmas Monologue

What hell has befallen me this Christmas, I wanna die (I mean, I wanna end this stinkin', rotten, dull feeling)... Nobody understands me, my poor soul drifts endlessly in this cruel space called life. What the hell! I always feared this day would come... Feels like shit, this is far worse than having three healthy roaches crawling on your body, no kidding... I never imagined I'd be encountering this pain. I can consider myself to be the worst victim in the misunderstand-your-fellowmen-and-women case. Jeez...how unfortunate of moi. Am I this unpredictable and stupid to be misunderstood?sigh...darn it! I'm just being "kind" to everyone. :( shux! What the hell pare! Kung tinanong n'yo naman ako sa mga bagay-bagay... d naman ako magsisinungaling ah...promise. Pinalaki ako ng magulang ko ng maayos. Sori ah, ganito lang si Addison eh... maraming BABAE sa buhay... masyado siguro ako mabait para hindi umiwas... o sadyang napakatanga ko nga lang talaga, katangahan lang ito...tae talaga. Sori ah, d ako naturuan... "wag kang pakaka-sweet sa ibang babae, pag may minamahal kang isa." Kasalanan ko nga...ganun ba ako ka-bobo? --- Oo! kaya ka nga nagkakaganyan kasi bobo ka! D ka pa natuto nung unang ipahiram mo celpon mo... tapos ngayon, nagpakaBAIT ka pa... anu nangyari?... sheesh..--- "Wala kasi akong tinatago kaya ko pinahiram...anu ba meron sa phone ko? Msgs ng mga ____?...nakagawian ko nang i-save ung magagandang texts eh. I treasure ALL my friends" Sori ah, eto ako eh... Masama ba ako? Siguro oo... Bilis, murahin nyo na ako... kelangan kong mapagalitan para matuto... Sori Jesus ha, d kita masyado na-honor ngayong kaarawan mo. Patawad po. Mahal na mahal kita Lord, kahit hindi halata...andito sa puso ko ang diwa ng pasko. =) Sana maraming tao ang masaya ngayon...

Maligayang pasko nga pala sa lahat ng bumisita at nagpahiram ng kanilang oras para basahin ang walang kwenta kong monologue... Merry Christmas!!! Sana maging masaya kayo lagi!! :) Pasko na! I love you all!!! Kung kukumustahin nyo ako... Wala, wala akong maisip kundi iisang bagay.... ok lang ako... kaya ko toh.

Addistarted this journey at12:19 AM

Lunes, Disyembre 20, 2004

De'jà Vu

Pumunta ako sa STC ngayon. I woke up at around 10:30. I could hear my mom shouting, "Hoy late ka na! Pati ba naman sa araw na walang pasok late ka! Tapos pahihintayin mo pa _____" ...hindi pala si mama yun. It turned out that I was just irked by my conscience. So I quickly went to the bathroom and fixed everything... "Damn, I'm really gonna be late!" I told myself... My mom was really worried(lagi naman eh) :) I think the sight of his "baby" growing up is ...hard to accept... duh, mama! hehe... kaya ko toh! Why are you worrying? Dba kinaya ni papa noon? 16 din sya nun dba? Buti nga si papa eh, magkalapit lang bahay nyo... wahehehe... ;) ...siguro nga bata pa ako. Anyway, 11:15 na... darn it, mag g jeep pa ako.. gusto ko kasi ma-try magjeep papunta dun. Kaya ayan, 3 jeep, 1 tricycle...late na kasi talaga, kelangan magluwal ng P30 para sa tricycle... Grabe, nakakainis talaga ako!(bakit kasi d ko inalarm ung orasan ng maaga eh)...pumasok pa muna ako sa Dunkin Donut para i-text si Gie na male-late ako... arrgh.. ini-imagine ko na mukha ni Hanna... hay... sino ba namang d maiinis sa taong late...sino ba naman ako para pahintayin sya...sila.. hay. Pinagpawisan talaga ako sa kakaisip... I regretted not worrying when my mom was. Lumampas pa yung last na jeep kong sinakyan, muntikan pa ako umabot ng quiapo.. :)) buti may mga super considerate na traffic enforcers at isang good citizen sa jeep na nag-alalay sa akin ng daan papuntang STC...hehe! Pagbaba ko ng tricycle... daming Theresians ang tumingin... lalo pa akong kinabahan... patay na... ewan ko kung luck ang tawag dun o ano, sakto! Hanna and Gie were walking toward the gate, I crossed the street and greeted them... And then I gave my Christmas gift to Hanna... (buti nasusulat ko pa tong mga toh...hoo!...para sa mga kaklase kong mang-aasar...please lang.hehe) Ayun... ayun...tapos ayun... :D Tapos sabi, pupunta raw silang Greenhills... sumama na ako. ..hay, d na ako sanay sumama sa mga babae..d gaya nung elementary pa... They're gonna buy gifts kasi... and boy, Gie was so proud of knowing the way papuntang Greenhills, hehe! Pagpunta dun, they ate corndog...(kala ko sa una, imbes na cheese ung loob, mais...hehe..tanga! coated with corn bread daw pala) Ako kanin na kinain ko...ginutom talaga ako eh. Nakita ko pa dun si Kiefer...hahah! ang dami ring Theresians ang nandun.. Pagdating ng 2:40, umalis na kami.

Addistarted this journey at7:48 PM

Sat., Dec. 18

Last day na pala ng klase kahapon... We guys really spent the whole day yesterday! haha! ...and spent the whole ipon! ^_^ Nagpakasaya lang kami. Merry Christmas to all! We watched the super-cool movie, National Treasure! Ganda! Maraming puzzle-puzzle...detective-detective...ewan. Ganda talaga... Nasalubong pa namin sina JM, Hero, Archie at Regi sa cinemahouse...hehe... pumipila para sa Bcoz Of U! ;) hanep sila!... hehe... joke lang! Bad Santa ata pinanood nila... Tapos non nagpapicture pa kami...hehe! Moments captured again! Then, we ate, played some arcade...and then played network games... Nang-ubos sila... ng pera. hehe! Pag-uwi sa bahay, ngumiti lang ako habang pinagmamasdan ang aking mga regalo... kasabay nun ay nalungkot ako... hindi ko naregaluhan ang iba kong kaibigan...hay :( sori talaga... kala ko me pasok pa sa monday eh... engot ko talaga..
Today's math training was cool! ...too bad that's the last of it... Ewan ko kung talagang hilig ko math.*sigh* Gusto ko rin kasi Science... tapos computer... tapos literature... Nakaka-amuse kasi yung mga nasa Discovery at NGC dba? DBA?? walang aangal... dati ko pa gusto maging "scientist" eh... kaso pinanganak ako sa Pinas...=) You know... gets? Tsaka d kami mayaman... Me nakita na ba kayong Pinoy na nag e-explain sa Discovery? hehe... sabihin nyo lang kung me nakita kayo ha.. ;) Tsaka hangga't maaari, ayoko iwanan tong bayang sinilangan ko... mahal ko toh eh.nax! Ano kaya gagawin ko pagtanda ko? 0_o ...boy.. Gusto ko yumaman para sa pamilya ko...present and future. hehe!

Addistarted this journey at7:19 PM

Linggo, Disyembre 12, 2004

Boy meets Girl

Once upon a time, there was a boy who has a crush on a girl named M. He kept it to himself for two years. He was the president of his class and she was the vice president; he was the top of the class and she was second to him. The dynasty continues for four years. His classmates teased them, they said their "bagay", the boy thought so too and the girl had thought the same... Reaching their fourth grade, still, nothing was heard from this boy...nobody knows for sure how he felt for the girl. He kept it all to himself... Until one day, the girl asked her best friend to go and ask this boy if he ever liked someone and if ever, who might she be. The friend asked him. When the boy heard the question, he could not say anything. The boy was stunned, hearing "pinapatanong ni M, sino ba crush mo?" Of all the stupid answers in the world...he picked the most stupid one. He said dim-wittedly, "wala...wala akong crush". The friend insisted to spill the truth and that it will be a secret. But this boy claimed he's pretty sure with his answer. Then the bell rang, everyone prepared to leave. All the friend could do is whisper into the boy's ear, "Alam mo ba, crush ka ni M!" Those last words echoed more loudly in his ear than the ring of the bell... he's more stunned than ever.

What do you think happened to that boy? Has he ever "reclaimed" his idiotic reply? :)...well, to tell you the truth, he didn't. :( What had caused this dumb person to keep his feelings all to himself? Why was he too scared to let it all out? Is he that EXTREMELY shy?
...some questions are better left unanswered...

That boy has grown now, I cannot completely say that he's still the same... But I can tell you a secret*! ....in his fourth year in high school, the boy found something (or should I say, he met someone) ...and he knew better not to let that feeling pass... he knew better not to spoil it big time... he knew better not to hide it... and he knew better not to suffer in the end...

*I hope*

Addistarted this journey at11:43 PM

Worst Predicament (When will roaches reach extinction?)

I slept the whole afternoon! Wah! ...whole PM talaga... nagising na ako mga...12am... hehe! :) Anong klaseng tao ako... What concluded my day was the stupid cockroach in our bedroom. >_< ...ugh! The most abominable, horrendous, stinkin creature on earth, I tell you. That cockroach made my mom and I look stupid. We peeked at our bedroom door from the outside, hopelessly staring at the stupid cockroach as it crawls on the wall, wishing that somehow it would suddenly disappear. We looked like fools holding broomsticks in one hand and a slipper on the other... desperately mustering enough strength and courage to solve our cursed fate. With poor luck, nothing happened, the proud creature crawls on... no lightning bolt or whatever struck that stupid roach. Then, realizing that our weapons were no use (I knew it from the start that I can't use them), I went downstairs and picked a much-reliable-weapon called the rubberbands :) , I used it as a slingshot. Mother made the "paper bullets" and together, we engage into the battle...the battle that's been started since I was four. Damn all those creatures! I really couldn't seem to understand why God created "it". I'd be happy to accept and understand all the "nonsense" in the world, but living with roaches???... Aargh! Puhleaze! ...not in a million years!...not for a million bucks!.... As I was saying, all my shots missed... I can't go near the target...not enough courage. :D (btw, my bro's downstairs, praying) The tiny fiend crawls... high on the wall. Then, my mom suddenly surrenders, she called for our maid for the rescue, it pains her to wake her up late at night...but...there's no other brave soul awake at that time so... we have no choice... :) As always, our helper saved the day again! Standing from a high chair, she squashed the stupid cockroach dead...it never knew what hit it..maybe it's just too old and grumpy to be of any challenge to our heroine. It fell to the ground signaling its defeat. Today, victory is ours...

Addistarted this journey at2:20 AM

Miyerkules, Disyembre 08, 2004

Frio Frio

An addition to my childhood memory... hehe! I never imagined I'll be doing the same thing my father did...when he was at my age. Well, I never imagined I'll be doing it any time soon. :) But hey! I've done it! I dunno if I should be glad about it...(What's it?)...uhh...tuwing uwian kasi pnupuntahan ni papa c mama sa school nila eh!..
We met up with our mga-kaibigang-babae.. (hehe, panget pakinggan pag in-english)...somewhere there malapit sa school nila (STC) hehe... Mikko, Fred, Teejay, and Yoshi were there too. happy happy joy joy uli! Hindi nga lang kasiya-siya ang service ng Friomix. Pina-cancel ko na nga lang order ko matapos maghintay ng ganun katagal...hay. (wel, salamat sa kanya -kung sino man nagpa-cancel) ;) Hinatid namin sina Hanna at Gie sa house ni Gie (napakalapit lang pala sa iskul nila). Hanna was, as usual, looked.....y'know. hehe! ..ayun, ....ayun na, tapos umuwi kami...gabi na. Pag-uwi ko, nalaman ko nalang na sira PC... shoot!

Addistarted this journey at8:52 PM

Hell Ride

I experienced the ultimate ride in hell last sunday! o_O... Nanlata talaga ako...hehe. Asking why? ...(Basta secret!)...

Asking why the heck I'm blogging this if I'll not share it anyway?...

ok cge na, i tell you - I nearly lost someone so dear...ayun. Satisfied?

ANYWAY, I should get rid of my self-pity...ugghh, zemit...since when did I develop it! I should really get rid of it.....uhh...and I think I should improve on my humor too! hehe......well, I think I can't, because ...coz...my face just weren't "built" to infuse laughter. Ewan ko, tanong kasi nila madalas kung joke na ba iyon o hindi... :( waaah! hehehe...

Addistarted this journey at8:26 PM

Huwebes, Disyembre 02, 2004

Ikaw lang ang buhay ko

Have you ever entertained the thought of losing your life? Horrible, isn't it? I could not think of worse. Maybe it's more grueling to think of it than to experience the actual thing!hehe.. Just today, I was banging my head hard hoping that there were still other things inside my head to mull over... but the devil proved hard to resist. Just recently, my world rotated ....differently. Since the ninth of November, my teenage life turned. I'm in love, there's no denying it. ..hay, you all know it na eh. Grrrr..(is it that obvious?!!*curse) She's the only one....the very first.... how I wish I could show it all... but damn, I'm too fearful. So many qualms bugging me...*sigh. Inuuna ko pa ang hiya. hay... Ang dami kasing nagkukwento ng nakakalungkot eh. Tungkol sa kanya. Nonetheless, I believe everything she says naman eh... If she said it's not true, then I'm more than glad. :) It was just that...I'm too stupidly scared (hehe, stupidly scared) to ask if SOMETHING is true or not. But whatever THAT SOMETHING is, I don't take it against her or anybody else. Iniisip ko lang na pagkukulang ko yon. I don't want to cause her any trouble. Sa akin nga, sobra-sobrang trouble na ung bagay na un eh.hehe! But now? (as of 6pm) I'm soooooooo happy! Basta!

Addistarted this journey at8:09 PM

Miyerkules, Disyembre 01, 2004

The Great Depression

Today's a bummer. D ako nkatulog nung gabi... heheh! My gulay! Ang sakit ng ulo ko.... kumikirot. >:c Pero it lasted for 2 hours lang naman :) I really am not myself today. Lumalala na ako... hahah! Bigla na lang ako napapakanta nowadays... hehehe. Tapos kanina, nakatulala lang ako sa blackboard.... Rchie complimented me, "Addison! kaya mo yan!" And then I replied, "Hindi ko nga alam eh, parang di ko kaya!" ...Tapos sabi ni Rchie, "Ano ka ba!.. yan lang." ...and then a sudden "snap-back" occurred to me... I realized he was talking about the math lesson. :) And then I said, "ah! heheh...oo! kaya yang math! Iba lang nasa isip ko. heheh, iba ung sabi kong 'd ko ata kaya.'" Then I apologized to him. Napangiti nalang siya ng me kahulugan...nyahaaa.. Dami ko talagang iniisip. Tapos eto pa! Me sinabi pa si Francis na sobrang nakaka-down. Hay nako, sana d totoo yon. Ayoko maniwala! Last time na naniwala ako...anong inabot ko... haha! But still......damn! The thing he said lurks uncomfortably inside my head. Nakaka-depress talaga... ayoko na nga isipin eh. Basta! I won't give up. (Am I making any sense here?... sori ha, mukhang wala! Sabi sa inyo e, ung reservation sa mental ha wag kalimutan) Anyway, wala ngayon c Pinggoy at Mikko sa klase...they're happy sa Taytay...hmpf! kakainggit! SC business kasi, Intrams ng tiga-Taytay Beda. Kaya pala todo mang-asar ngayon c Marc....kaya pala... d sya maaasar ke Pinggoy. hehe. Kumana tuloy ako ngayon sa recitation...hehe! Me bad nga pala nangyari sa klase..naku, buti nalang tinanggap ni Ma'am apology namin.. (wag nyo na alamin kung d nyo pa alam, wlang kwentang tuksuhan lang yon)...Tapos nung lunch halos d na ako nkakain, me inayos pa kasi sa YFC. Good thing my spirit came back as I went home...the phone beeped....she remembers. :) I couldn't ask for more...

Addistarted this journey at7:04 PM